Hi. Pls go watch a videos on stomp "Don't watch this video in public, unless you want others to see you cry" It's about a father and a daughter. I watch until I cried likea dog, cried until can't breathe. I think I really disappointed my dad alot. I smoked, I put tattoos, I hang out with bad friends, I always overnight, I retain, I can at least let him go to sch for more than 10 times a year to see my teachers, I always quarrel with mum and end up he will be the one get scolded and he always get me what I want. I told him I want bb torch, camera, bag, clothes he always give me money and buy. But yet I'm always disappointing him every single time without fail. I'm seriously a failure in being a good daughter. I retained, I fail my exams he didn't even scold me at all but yet he encourage me again and again. I really scare that he will leave me someday and I know the day will come. I really don't know how to survive without my dad. I cant save money, I will spend away it once I have money. I really love my dad alot not because of his money. It's his care, love and concerns. Everytime because of me, he will quarrel with my mum. I'm not like others, I don't have mothers' care. Everything is from my dad. I really cannot take it if my dad really leave me someday. He's the one and only guy I wanna marry. I can't stop crying. I'm sorry papa. Wo zhen de hen ai ni. :'( And I miss my grandpa :'((((